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November 28th, 2005

09:32 pm - where have i been? oh dear lord havn't been on this in over a year......so wats hppnd? MAJOR MILESTONES: 1.passed ma drivin test 2. split wif taylor 3.managed to pass ma highers 4.found a man on ma hols 5.got into glagow uni 6.turned 18 N thts bout it rlly folks...wat can i say im a boring shit.Just now uni's a bitch, almost finished this term, ive gt a chem test on fri which im skrewd for and a psychology essay due in on monday on language development ( sounds gripping doesnt it? ) cant wait for DAFT FRIDAY tho.....a whole 12hrs of complete drinking, get a complamentary breakfast in da mornin, champange reception wif nibbles, sounds brill.i wanna go out thrs nyt coz i ddnt go out last week n i have a craving to get wrecked!!! ne1 else get that sumtimes? ne im gnna go, dnt even kno y im makin an entry coz no1 eva looks at these things nemre. ash xxx Current Mood: blah Current Music: pussy cat dolls- stickwitu

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September 6th, 2004

08:55 pm i aint bin on in fukin ages so i thot i wud 2nyt lol.HEHE its ma baday 2moz n ive gt ma 1st driving lesson. i so cnt wait for it, its gonna b so scarey.im goin out for dinner 2moz nyt aswell wit taylor, ma dad n ma wee bro.its shud b funny :P mwah x Current Mood: horny Current Music: none

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August 10th, 2004

09:39 pm - im such a fuk up! aint updated in fukin ages but 2day is a rather bad day so i thot i wud.2day i got ma higher results throo n it cudnt hve bin ne bloody worse. i got 3 C's and a D :S ma rents went fukin mental at me n i dunno if i'll go bak to skool or not coz i rlly jus dunno if its me.Got a fone call from tompsons tho n i had a stupid wee interview ova da fone n ive to go in for a proper interview on wed. it'd b well amazin if i worked for tompsons coz then i get discounts off holidays :D thts bout the onli good thing tht hppnd 2day. Taylor came down 2 c me 2day tho n i dunno wat i wudda dun witout him 2day coz i was so fukin misserable n he came n helpd cheer me up a bit.i dunno how he managed to put up wit me tho coz i jus wuddnt stop crying n spluttering all ova him lol.I love him so much n coz of silly wee fings lyk dat.dunno y he lyks me tho coz i am such a serious fuk up sumtimes. Achwell wat can i do bout it i spose. bye x Current Mood: depressed Current Music: watching the TV acctualy

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July 29th, 2004

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July 23rd, 2004

04:12 pm - yey hehehe peeps guess wat? i am typing this on ma new laptop :) im so happy wit it coz its a wireless connection so i can b on ma comp newhere :) YYYEEEEYYYY!!!!! neways jus thot id share dat wit uz. ps. love u taylor :P Current Mood: tired Current Music: none :(

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July 21st, 2004

06:44 pm heya i aint updated in ages, mind u nt much has rlly happend since last time. ive bin doin sweet fuk all rlly, bin spendin most of ma time either at emma's or taylor's.i wanna go out n get rlly drunk tho n im so desperate to coz i aint dun it in ages it feels lyk.this week has gone by rlly slowly so far acctauly n im startin to get sick of the summer hols already lol. n i jus kno im gonna run outta money so soon.ive hardly seen ne1 since ive bin bak either. WHERE IS EVERY1!?i betta see yas all soon lol. x mwah x Current Mood: horny as a mothafuker lol

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July 12th, 2004

10:36 pm ok adam here ya go babes since ya moand to get a mention :P Adam Blair for those of u dnt kno is one of ma wee pals i made wen i was on holiday n he is the coolest guy eva! (happy adam lol)we had a major laf n dunno wat i wudda dun the second week wif out him. n is he dusnt txt me tomoz like he sed he wud i'll murder him.lol. ya ken wat i mean like (ya get it adam lol) n omg we need to have cheese n biscuts in memory of dear james {sniff}. coz its jus the cats pajamas {garry}. do u like barbie? {frances}. oh so u r a virgin {adam}. i cant think of ne more adam u need to have ur input here. was the best holiday eva n wud totaly do it all ova again. luv ya x mwah x Current Mood: happy Current Music: good old CA

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08:28 pm well on friday afta bein all xcited bout bein home we found out tht ma gran had had a heart attack while we had been away n had been in hospital for 2weeks, so we went down to shawlands to c her.she actualy looked ok for sum1 hu had jus bin in hospital bt she was rlly weak n tierd lookin.the whole family were bloody there n like all ma family r cummin frm every where 2 c her lol, ma uncles flown ova frm Dubi n cuzins cum frm london lol.bt i decided to go n c taylor for a bit since i was jus round the corner frm his. So went to his n had an amzin time. it was so nce sein him again. i missed him so much wen i was away n wen i first saw him i cudnt help but get a big cheezer on ma face lol.bt neway we jus sat out his room n chatted n had a laf again, bt i had to go at 7.so went bak to ma grans bt then we all wen for an indian! it was SOOOOOO nice. esp afta all the shitty for on the boat for 2weeks, i gt to eat real food! So on sat i needed to work :( i so cuddnt get up at 7 wen my alarm went off, it was so horible n it was the longest days work ive had in ages. bt neway emma foned me n asked me to go to hers n stay so i was lyk hell yeah coz i pure missed her wen i was on ma hols aswel.twas so funny coz wen i gt to hers we both jus screamed n ran at each otha n ddnt stop huggin for lyk 10 mins lol (were such girls lol). so neway we went down to safeway n bought sum more vodka coz emma had bout a 1/4 bottle left frm the otha nyt n so we jus sat in hers n gt pissed lol.its so funny the amount of shit tht cums out ma mouth wen im dunk. on sunday woke up (looked in the mirror n almost screamed at the sight lol)foned CK n told her to cum down coz i aint seen her in ages either.wen she gt there dd the screamy thing wit her 2 lol.so we got ready n went into town n met loads a peeps. met taylor n then me him n emma came bak to mine for a movie fest. the whole point was tht we were gonna watch shrek2 bt the dvd ddnt work in ma player :( so we watch sum rlly shitty movies lol n munched on shite. yeah and emma n taylor decided to attack ash n tickle her 2 death, twas not nice uz 2 :( i cuddnt breathe lol. today ive dun sweet fuk all sat in most of the day n then gone to the stables at bout 5 coz im lookin afta this wee guys pony while he's away on holiday for 5weeks (luky wee shite) so i rode tht n it was bein such a wee shite so i gave up n came home lol.so now im sittin wit nuttin to do n im shit bored. luv yas x mwah x Current Mood: sleepy Current Music: the streets

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July 9th, 2004

12:21 am - IM BAAAACK!! omg thts me home! wow! i get to sleep in ma own bed again. i had a good week on ma hols this week acctualy, met a good bunch a ppl hu i think i mite actualy keep in touch wif.i think ive got a tan bt i betacha tht i cum in n i jus havent lol.well im gonna go to me bed now coz ive bin uup since 7.30 this mornin (omg jus had a thot i was in spain lyk onli 5 hours ago :S) c yas all soon luv ya x mwah x Current Mood: horny

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July 3rd, 2004

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June 28th, 2004

04:14 pm - Bonjorno heya darlins.im on the boat the now.was in portofino today (thts italy btw lol).im pure so burnt lol.omg have i missed loads a gossip? im pure missin every1. im kinda home sick :( hope tht ur 18th went good gee, hope u gt wreaked lol. im missin u loads taylor n i cnt wait to c ya wen i gt bak.met loads a peeps. neways im off coz im on holly's account fing n im usin her money. love yas all. cyas wen i gt bak. ash x mwah x Current Mood: horny Current Music: none :( aint listend to any at all on this holiday lol

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June 23rd, 2004

09:40 pm - AARRGGHHH!!! Omg i have decided to quit smoking coz its pure seriously fukin wit ma throat big time.onli problem bein.....IM DYING HERE!!!!!!! i seriously ddnt think it was gonna b this bad. i dnt smoke tht much aswell bt im pure shakin n everythin. Bt NO im gonna do this.AHHH no i cant. hhheeelp me sum1 :( ash x mwah x Current Mood: frustrated Current Music: maroon 5

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05:17 pm - I'LL MISS YAS well im gonna b goin away for 2weeks in bout 12 hours :( i rlly cnt bassed to b honest.ive pure lookd forward to it all year n now i cnt b assed lol.I kinda wana ride b4 i go away bt its too l8 now :( N gee i'll get ya sumit for yer 18th bday dnt worry. cnt believe im gonna miss it lol.wen i gt bak ur gonna tell me how wrekd u gt lol.Im glad uz 2 hve made up btw. awww was so cute ma wee bro had his last day of primary skool 2day (aww he's a big boy :P) bt he's nt goin 2 the ame high skool as the rest of them so it was quite a wee emotional day for him lol. Oh yeah u kno how i went for an interview for mindelicious on sunday?....well i gt a letter thro today n i ddnt gt the job :( plus i aint herd nefin frm tammy yet...am i jus an un-employable person? ne1 kno sum1 out there tht will give me a job lol.Omg ive had the most boring day eva.i gt up n tidyed the kitchen n ma room n then sat bout watchin shitty day time TV.so then i gt so bored tht i fell asleep.N i had the weirdest dream tht like EVERY1 was in, like i mean EVERY1 lol. n we were all in sum mad rave lol.well weird lol.ok well im gonna go. I'll cyas all in 2weeks.I'll miss yas all. i'll miss ya soooooo much taylor.love u. ash x MWAH x Current Mood: blah Current Music: christina millian (oh yet again! lol)

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June 22nd, 2004

06:52 pm - LAST DAY OF SKOOL (even tho i neva went lol) well today i pure struggled lyk hell to get up, bt eventualy managed.almost missed the bus to skool AGAIN! lol.sold sum wee girl on the bus a book n then wen i gt to skool i walked to shawlands n went to taylor's.so basialy all ive dun all dayis fuk about at his.we did have a rite laf tho.mind u we always do wen were togetha lol.AWWWW im goin away on ma hols in 2days :( onli good thing thts gonna cum outta this is tht im gonna gt a tan lol.well neways i came home frm taylors n went straight to sleep.im always so tierd these days :S bt awww ma wee bro had his P7 dance tonite n he had on a wee kilt n everythin. They were even gettin a fukin limo! I ddnt even get tht for ma dance, we gt a bus lol.BT mamum showd me the fotos n all the wee girls look so pretty n thenuve got all the wee boys in their kilts, awwwww its jus so cute lol.well im gonna go gt sum dinner. luv yas n leave yas. ash x MWAH x Current Mood: ecstatic Current Music: christina millian (again!)

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June 21st, 2004

04:48 pm - BORING DAY! had such a boring day today it was unreal.cud hardly wake up this mornin n i almost missed the bus.had the shitty book sale today bt the fukin teacher have changed all the books on the book list so i cudnt sell ne :( managed to find sum gullable wee kids tho n made £35 on books :D then me,emma,aj, n lora all decided to go for a gregs n me n emma had a wee fly fag on the way.came bak n sat in the common room until english n we went up n watched " the importance of being ernest" lol then it was lunch n me n emma went for another fag lol bt we met danni n the girl hu was on a mad "taster day" n she fukin h8d craigholme lol (no bloody wonder) then went to bio afta lunch n jus basicaly sorted out ma investigation tht im gonna do nxt year so tht i kno wat im gonna do wen i cum bak to skool.N then me n emma went down to the commonroom n fukd bout for an hour till skool finished lol. so thts me home n im so redy to fall asleep. hehe i go away on holiday on thurs, so cant wait jus to get away for a while n get a tan lol.but shud b fun spendin a whole 2weeks wit ma rents ALL BY MASEL, esp wen there in the mood tht there in wit me the now :S Ahwell im jus gonna need to enjoy it as best as i can. ash x MWAH x Current Mood: tired Current Music: christina mallian

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June 20th, 2004

03:26 pm - WATS THE FUKIN PROBLEM? Y can nuttin eva b simple?.......N y is it tht no matta wat i do, nuttin eva seems to b good enough?......i try ma best to keep every1 happy most of the time n wen i decide to do wat i want im apparently bein selfish. Am i nt allowd to b b a bit selfish sumtimes coz every1 else is so y cant i? I jus feel like im neva happy n wen i find sumit tht makes me happy every1 seems to want to make it hard for me to have it. i dnt wanna hurt ppl n im soz if i have, bt i jus wanna b pals wit every1 n the ppl kno hu they r.I wish things cud b diff bt they aint so i need to deal wit things the way they r, bt it dusnt help wen ppl r bein cold wit me n ppl r syin tht things r cool between us n they dnt h8 me wen rlly they do. Feelings dnt change ova nyt n so sum feelings for sum ppl r still there which is y it hurts wen i kno they h8 me. Parents dnt bloody help either. R they nt ment to b happy if im happy?...obv not! n accordin to them im jus a we slut n how horrible wud u feel if ur own parents thot bout u lyk dat. ur ment to b able to tok to them n b bale to tell them how ur feelin, bt i cnt. Im bloody 16 almost 17 n aparently thts not old enough to make ma own life decisions n they shud still b doin tht for me.N y do ppl make asumptions bout things tht they kno fuk all bout.esp wen it cums to hus shaggin n hus nt. n hu gives a fuk wat otha ppl r doin? thts their business n no1 elses.N dnt think tht im nt thinkin bout wat otha ppl r feelin, coz i am! bt ppl need to think bout how i'm feeling aswel, esp wen u gt betrayed by the one person hu u thot loved u more than life itself n hu u loved more than nething in the world.Jus think bout tht! Theres sum food for thought ppl ash x mwah x Current Mood: thoughtful Current Music: none

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June 17th, 2004

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09:02 pm - eventful week ok so alot has hppnd this week....started goin bak out wit gas u knoon sat he came round on sunday nshit was fine.wen t go n stay at emma Us tht nyt bt i found out tht Gee had cheated on me wit clare...so yeah i felt like shit.so he came up to ma skool on monday at lunch n to cut a long story short we broke up,for good.so then i decided to go home afta lunch coz skool was shite n we werent doin nefin so we went into town n me n aj went up to taylors work n lora n ck went to ck's flat.then came bak to central n mukd bout n then i went home.tuesday was ment to b sports day bt i cudnt b fukd goin so i dingyd it n went to taylors n we watched shrek 2...its well funny.then i went home coz i needed to start gettin ready to go to barfly n i gt ready in an hour, how proud of me r u?neways went into town n met aj n taylor n grant n g n danielle n jus all the usual ppl, went n got drink n then headed dwn to barfly.theres sumit bout barfly tht i need to b sick in tht place...its lyk ma wee tradition lol.And emma decided to take me n taylors wee relationship into her own hands n now thnx to her were goin out lol (nt tht im nt happy :P)neway afta barfly we went bak to sum mad girls house in the mearns where i knew like no1 lol,bt me n taylor decided to have nosy upstairs bt neway the girl hus house it was took a freaky so we decided to leave coz i cudnt b assed wit all the bitches in tht house.neway me n taylor went a walk bt emma called n told us to cum bak n then i went round the bak n Gee n aj n grant n james n shit were there, me n gee had a wee tok, bt i needed to go home.so me emma n pete had to walk home n pete was SO pissed he was singin the spice girls n all sorts on the way dwn the road lol.n then he fell ova a wall in2 a bush and into sum1s garden lol.so went bakto emmas n pete decided to stay ova nyt n i had to sleep in the same bed as those to shaggers lol.was not a nice nyts sleep :P JK.bt had to gt up the nxt mornin feelin very hung ova n had to go for a job interview :( was nt good lol. bt ive got another interview on sunday :D thts for mindelicious. bt i think thts bout it rlly. x mwah x Current Mood: horny Current Music: libery - x :S

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June 12th, 2004

06:53 pm yesterday i went into town to meet g bt it pure ended in complete disaster.we hardly tok at 1st n then i dunno wat hppnd we were kinda arguing bt then nt at the same time (look i honestly dnt kno so dnt ask me to xplain lol)bt neway it pure made me so upset n jus fukd wit ma hed.then taylor came dwn to central afta his wrk n him n gee pure wrnt tokin at all.bt they evantualy made up which i was pure happy bout coz i ddnt want them fallin out bout summit as stupid as this.then gee foned last nyt n he jus sed so much stuff n i jus cryed so much n pure ddnt kno wat to do.then soon afta gettin off the fone to G taylor foned n we talked for a while n again i pure ddnt kno wat i wntd to do.i ended up sittin up all nyt thinkin bout absolutly EVERYTHIN n STILL i ddnt kno wat i wntd.had to gt up for work this mornin which was hellish n then gee txt me in the mornin n i dunno i jus found maself sayin tht i wantd him bak n at tht moment i knew thts wat i wntd.so basicaly were goin bk out nw n i am rlly happy bt i cnt help feel like a pure bitch.If ive hurt any body at all i jus wanna say sorry to every1 for causin so much shit n rlly ddnt mean it. neway im sittin in ma house all on ma lonesum wit nuttin to do at all.hehe i got to teach a lesson at ma work today, so nw ive got ma own wee lesson to teach every week nw :D haha im a wee horse ridin teacher :P hu eva thot they'd hear dat lol.bt i gt bit by a pony today aswell :( n now its turnd in2 a big bruise :( i h8 ringo lol.bt i think im gonna go up tomoz mornin n borrow ma bosses horse n go out a hack n jus think.i jus hope its a nice day.aint gone out a hack since last summer. i pure miss ridin actauly coz i neva do it nemre, i bet im so crap now lol.OMG im pure ramlbin now, so i'll go. luv yas xxx Current Mood: mixed emotions Current Music: christina aguilera...yet again! lol

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June 11th, 2004

06:29 pm - IM SO SORRY today cudda not gone ne worse if it fukin tryed. i pure duno wat the hell to do bout all this coz allma feelins r so screwed up n ijus dnt kno wat i wnt n im bein told so many diff things frm so many diff ppl i jus dunno wat to beleive n wat not to believe.i feel like the biggest bitch there is n i kno every1s gonna h8 me. n im jus sooooooo soooooo soz n i ddnt want ne of this to happen n i ddnt mean ne of it.i kno i shudda thot bout things a bit betta to put it mildly bt i wasnt thinkin n thts the point.well tolook on the bright side at least taylor n gee hve made up n thts wat i wz most concerend about, coz i dnt want u guys fallin out ova summit as stupid as this, esp not wen ur best m8s. i jus dunno wat else to say apart from im sorry! ash xxx Current Mood: confused Current Music: marron 5

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